Day 4: I Can Do Both part 2

Continuing on correcting the point of having to choose either helping people locally or globally through Self-Forgiveness and Self-Correction.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be locked into the mindset of having a choice when it comes to who I help and what I do to help -- as this always has reflected me choosing whatever's in my self-interest, whatever comes easiest -- and never has been a reflection of my alignment to what is best for all, as if it was, there would no 'choice', only obligation.

I forgive myself that I haven't accepted and allowed myself to see/realize/understand the usual pattern that tends to come up when I allow myself 'choice': I go into a fear construct in my mind where all the usual 'what-ifs' come up -- what if I choose 'wrong' / what if other people judge me / etc. and within this I allow myself to do nothing, to not choose anything, to not push past my thoughts of doubt.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to act based on memories of the past, based on my reactions towards other people's reactions: wherein I professed the Desteni message and was met with, "That's cool, but I'm going to instead become a therapist, for example, because that is something I know for sure will make an impact on the lives of people," and so I created a connection on my mind, not anything that was based on certainty or having tested this out in real life, that I have I can't be a person that does both.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge those that do things to help people in ways differently than promoting Life in Equality and deeming them as 'time-wasters', when in-fact people need help building a sustainable infrastructure for themselves RIGHT NOW -- children in impoverished parts of the world for example need solutions like Living Income Guaranteed, but this is something that is obviously only going to be available in the future; while in the present those children need people that are doctors, people that can help build wells for fresh water, people that can help these children get an education, and so I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself not to do both, because I can.

I commit myself to see/realize/understand what I do to myself in the moment when I allow myself to only choose between two opposite sides of the spectrum, and to use this seeing/realizing/understanding to make decisions that will include the whole and be full-circle in its helpfulness.

I commit myself to no longer accept and allow myself to make decisions based on what other people in the past have decided as helpful in the world, to push past in resistances in the form of 'what-if', and to form a real understanding of what needs to be done in this world, such as helping people in the now and laying the road to be helpful in the future.

I commit myself to stop making excuses in finding opportunities in my community to be helpful, be it helping people become literate, helping people feed themselves and their family -- anything that is required to be done to help these people in the now -- while also coming together to find diplomatic solutions to the world that will help people that are out of my physical reach because both of these are important.  People are important.

Thanks.