Day 5: tl;dr (Too Long; Didn't Read)

tl;dr

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see/realize/understand the amount of power I give tl;dr every time I am faced with a lengthy piece of writing, wherein I will start doing the reading but allow myself to enter into huge states of anxiety - am I ever going to finish?, am I getting the point?, should I continue? -- and thus not be completely here with myself and my application of reading.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not use this point of anxiety as tl;dr as an indicator of where I am at in my Process, as to where I struggle in disconnecting my thoughts of anxiety and where I need to consciously work on being here as Breath so that I can actually investigate the information presented to me without all the other back-chats.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to discard the purpose of reading -- it's not to get from start to finish and feel accomplished that I got through it, but it is to actually learn something, rather it be about me and my participation with myself in how I participate in reading, or about somebody else and how they experience themselves. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not consider that others may be facing the same point as this, and so within this I forgive myself for having accepted and allowed myself to not take on the challenge of writing short, concise, easy to understand, and to the point to help aid others in being able to be here.

I commit myself to stop the fear of tl;dr by taking each step within the reading process in a breath to breath manner, so in this way I can stay consistent, not going to slow as to where I am not reading and letting myself get distracted, and not going to fast as to where I miss the points being presented to get to the end quickly, but in a way that builds stability/understanding: step by step, breath by breath.

In the next post I will be walking through an opposite side of this -- the point of having so much to write about on a particular subject that anxiety, self-doubt, fear, not knowing where to start, and all sorts of other emotion comes in that sways oneself to settle for less and be half-ass with what one wants to convey.

Thanks everyone.